BLAST OFF

karensestas @ 2006-11-18T21:19:00

2006-11-19T01:19:23Z

while i have some free time.

rise against, thursday, and billy talent in niagra falls.
big bottle of goldsloger.

i was too wasted to enjoy myself and i ended up leaving after a half an hour. i was so pissed.
but highlight:

i guess i was screaming at this one guy who scotty said was "the biggest emo kid who would push a girl" there.
it went something like this:

"FUCK YOU, ....FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. YOU'RE A FUCKING FAGGOT. FUCK YOU"
and i guess the guy got pretty upset. and was like having a conference with his friends about what he should do. they just called me a whore or something.

ah.

karensestas @ 2006-11-16T12:49:00

2006-11-16T16:49:51Z

nevermind. i really like journaling.
sometimes i just find myself too busy to keep this up.

mmm. i skipped school to sleep in.

karensestas @ 2006-11-05T19:58:00

2006-11-05T23:58:00Z

i could care less about this. bye.

karensestas @ 2006-10-14T15:20:00

2006-10-14T19:27:13Z

it snowed in NY. i didn't have power for 12+ hours. i almost killed myself. :)

oh you can finally see my nose ring! sweet.

anyway. friday the thirteenth right? rented some scary movies and snuggled with my boy. i ended up going to sleep in the near end of Saw. haha. it was like, 11. :( i was sleepy

right!

left!

karensestas @ 2006-10-05T20:03:00

2006-10-06T00:29:54Z

i have never felt as much happiness as i felt there. it's been months and every day i constantly think about how beautiful it was. how much i miss it. how much i miss him. everything.

ps: that is the back of my head. hot i know.

karensestas @ 2006-09-30T17:59:00

2006-09-30T22:00:19Z

always remember drugs are bad.

my pretty princess

2006-09-22T00:57:59Z

i hate how gay i am around him :(

ahaha. i payed for him to get his eyebrows waxed and they look very pretty.

i am happy.

2006-09-12T02:08:24Z

:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

karensestas @ 2006-09-06T14:40:00

2006-09-06T18:45:19Z

school starts friday. how fucking pointless to start on a friday. haha.
yesterday kayla scotty and i went into a tattoo shop so kayla could get a tongue ring. we all came out with new piercings. haha

kayla: eyebrow
scotty: tongue
me: nose

hell yes. my nose is pierced. haha. i made the terrible mistake of looking while the needle was still in my nose. i laughed for like 10 minutes. it hurt.

pre-nose piercing:

karensestas @ 2006-09-04T20:41:00

2006-09-05T00:41:29Z

HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN

kittens say "rub my tummy!"

2006-09-01T14:52:26Z

courage!

russell!

fist!

karensestas
new layout!

karensestas @ 2006-08-31T23:53:00

2006-09-01T04:00:56Z

i'm really sick of being the one who has to do everything for everyone. is it really that hard to help yourself? i guess so.
my friend reminded me how nice it is to keep a journal. but i really don't do anything worth writing in my life. its always drugs, drugs, and drugs. sleeping around with different boys. im real cute. i want something more from life. eh. i'm probably just sad.

oh yeah, two new kittens, theyre adorable. :)

karensestas @ 2006-08-23T09:18:00

2006-08-23T13:19:07Z

i'm pretty much a complete and total mess. i'm sick with something. it's really gross so i'm not telling you what happens but mostly its constant uncomfortableness in my tummy. i hope i'm not dying or pregnant and i'm not going to the doctors :)

karensestas @ 2006-08-20T13:56:00

2006-08-20T17:56:29Z

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

warped tour

2006-08-17T15:29:18Z

hilarious

karensestas @ 2006-08-11T00:08:00

2006-08-11T04:13:22Z

i thought things were bad. they were bad and i accepted the fact. i thought i was a good person. i really did. but i'm not. a good person doesn't deserve this. i just thought it was a simple phone call from my mom. "she's bleeding". i just cried, and cried. and thought. thought about how i don't love her as much as i should. how she drives me crazy. how she talks and bitches. my worst fear has always been coming home to blood, all over everything, and her just laying there, smiling. she'd be happy dead. she'd finally have the happiness i could never give her; that no one could give her. that's why i'm so sad, because i could never please you. you, my own mother. he, my father died 15 years ago. she hasn't recovered.

so i came home to blood all over my bed. all over her shirt. i picked it up and wanted to scream. scream for all i was worth. i can't sleep. i'll be awake for her.

karensestas @ 2006-08-09T16:01:00

2006-08-09T20:02:29Z

i really like this boy. we're always drunk together. thats when he hugs and kisses me.

i guess i'm not good enough.

karensestas @ 2006-08-07T19:01:00

2006-08-07T23:03:09Z

it slipped my mind to share with the world my birthday was yesterday. but everyone is like on myspace, so its cool. hello 16. it's so weird, because i was like i'm 15, wait no 16. hello permit. hello driving. hello mass amounts of death, accidents, and problems.

overall. i've been really drunk the past two days.
and it has been quite a trip.

karensestas @ 2006-07-30T20:26:00

2006-07-31T00:26:44Z

hahahaha can we say, hangover?

yes i have pimples too.

karensestas @ 2006-07-29T17:30:00

2006-07-29T21:30:37Z

i finally kissed the boy i've liked for a year.
it was beautiful.

karensestas @ 2006-07-28T17:48:00

2006-07-28T21:52:55Z

a quick generalization of my life:

1. girls hate me
2. boys like me
3. girls hate me because their boys like me.

4. i find a lot of comfort in alcohol.

karensestas @ 2006-07-23T16:13:00

2006-07-23T20:14:15Z

it seems as if i'm always in a constant state of waiting. waiting for something, someone.
often i also find myself alone in the backseat of a car.

karensestas @ 2006-07-19T15:58:00

2006-07-19T19:58:50Z

i want to stop missing people.

karensestas @ 2006-07-16T14:39:00

2006-07-16T18:59:22Z

i know you all have missed seeing pictures of me. hahaha nah

my sister brought over her kitties a few days ago. cutest little shits everrrr. i've been meaning to take pictures of them for like weeks now, but i finally got around to it. she brought over 4 and the momma pancake. theres 15, including the 5 our kitten had. cuteee.

people are really stupid sometimes. actually, most times. i can't believe half the bullshit i've been hearing as of late. i wonder how many second chances i'm willing to give people. its really hot too. all i want to do is go swimming with this girl -> miss kayla hamsandwhich johnsonburger. she's gorgeous right? yeah i know.

my dreams have been really weird lately. i don't really remember them but i know that they were strange. last night i dreamed about michael. i really miss him. i wish it was january. then he'd be back. and i could make fun of him.

i hate the dreams where you wake up and feel as though they were happening. like i dreamed i had rice krispies, because i really want some. and so this morning i searched, and found nothing :(

hahaha i should probably lj-cut this and maybe post pictures of my carnival adventure.
i think one picture will do it justice:
haha oh mr. boston.

karensestas @ 2006-07-12T10:37:00

2006-07-12T14:37:51Z

the past few days have been really nice. everything is good with everyone. my nails are like, bright yellow. haha.
i really need to clean everything, but i'm too lazy and tired.